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The "King of Your Own Dirt Pile"

Proverbs 26:11 says, "Like a dog that returns to his vomit is a fool who repeats his folly." It's one of the most disgusting images in scripture, but it is perfectly accurate. Why does the dog go back? Because it's warm. It's familiar. It's theirs. We do the exact same thing. We return to our toxic exes, the bottle, the pornography, and the self-loathing because it is "familiar vomit." Even the Apostle Paul struggled with this in Romans 7:15: "For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate." This is the definition of the human condition. It is the definition of addiction. Why do we do it? Because peace requires surrender. It requires you to submit to God's pacing. But misery? Misery only requires self-sabotage. We would rather be the kings of our own miserable little dirt pile than servants in God's peaceful kingdom. Because if I'm miserable, I'm still the center of my universe, and I have an excuse not to grow up. It is time to leave the dirt pile.